To be strong.

He shout at you. He press you. You have so many things to say, but you know you can't say them. He looks at you, waiting. Everybody knows how it is going to end, but finally, you say what you think. But you know that this thing only mean that you have "no brain", that you "are really stupid". You know you can't have an opinion, a point of view if it is different to his. He keep screaming, and you think that is the only thing he knows. You hate it because you scream too, and you do it because you have learned it from him. He tells you the stupid and pathetic you are, and you finish with "ok, people can't talk here, because you don't listen". You stand up and go to the bathroom, and there you finally start to cry. The tears run from your eyes until your mouth, but you try to be silence. You don't want nobody to hear you. You knew it. But what could you have done? Let him think he is always right, when he is not? No. It's not that way, you think. You knew you were going to get hurt, but it don't bother you. What bothers you is that your family were there, in the moment you decided to go to cry. The knew it. And you hate yourself, and you hate himself. You calm down. You go out, and he is there, standing, waiting to see you. "Why don't you do this when you say something in a  bad way, all this stupid thing you do?" he says. You breathe. "I came to the bathroom, and you keep screaming there, like always. Fighting" you replied. Two minutes later, you were lying in bed crying. Your mum say it doesn't matter. "It doesn't worth it". And of course it doesn't. But you are not going to let him piss you off when he want. You beg her to say to your family that you are asleep. Instead of that, your grandmother comes to say goodnight. You replied her while hiding your face. Inside your self, you ask "what could I learn from this? what can I take from all this shit? Instead of hiding myself to cry when I don't want the rest to see me. Instead of waiting patiently to talk when the other is saying bullshit. Instead pretending to don't hear him damning you. Instead of all that, what could you learn?"

To be strong, to resist.